This is the year I turn 70. It's kind of frightening, actually. My grandmother once told me, and I think I've mentioned it before, that your life goes by in the blink of an eye. I didn't believe it when she said it, but I do now. The women in my family usually live into their 90's, however I kind of hope I don't make it that long. If I lived to be 85, that's only 15 more years. Do you know how fast 15 years go? I feel like these last two years have been such a hard time for our family. I want us all to be happy again, but I think divorce leaves a scar that really never heals. It cuts through the whole family and leaves little nicks of sadness, anger, disbelief, and causes so much pain to all involved. We all have struggled to understand and tried to move on, but when you had so much love for the person who left so unexpectedly it's difficult. I don't want to be sad anymore, if I only have 15 years I want to live them hard. I need to work on this, because as my grandmother said...it's gone in the blink of an eye.
Nov. 2014 This week I got an unexpected health diagnosis. It kind of knocked my socks off. It also took away my ability to make beads anymore. So I am changing my blog. I am sure I will write about beads sometimes. I have a whole studio to part with, but I have health issues that are much more important and I want to share my thoughts and challenges on this blog. I hope you will come along with me and share your words of wisdom or encouragement.
I totally understand these sentiments, Harriet. I'll be 65 on Sat. I attended the funeral of a good friend yesterday and she was 2 years younger than me. I want to live my next 20 (I'm on board with 85) in a different place. I never thought I could leave my town but I'm ready now. I couldn't do it permanently (I don't think) while my mom is still alive. We're going to make a concerted effort when we visit St.Pete in March to look for a place in a 55+ community. We'll stay 3 mo. next year instead of only one, like we have been, and then who knows?
ReplyDeleteI've been fortunate in the family scarring department - none on either side of our families. I'm ready to not shovel ass-deep snow and live in a place where everyone takes care of their property.
Let's chase that happy place, my friend. I think we can find it.